Ashamed & Embarassed

Didn't keep up with my 36 hrs goals.

Pain - Regrets to losing time to non-urgent things and lost opprtunities.

martial arts

Jet Li.
Bruce Lee.
Discipline.

Underdog's Resilience.

Fortitute.

Proactive.

Righteousness.

though i've only dabbled in tae-kwon-do, aikido and watched my dad in wushu since i was a child, i have the utmost respect for martial artists. Their fervent spirit holds me in awe.

i believe, my limited knowledge of all kinds of Martial Arts has taught me not so much of the skills and techniques, but the spirit and meaning behind it. in today's world, it is not so much of the physical techniques that matter but how we perceive the world's challenges with what we learn from it.

From kung-fu shows, doesnt matter if its made up, it has taught me over and over again that not only do we have to be righteous and fight against what is wrong, but being a proactive fighter, we can emply a wide variety of skills to overpower a wide variety of problems. The skills and techniques we learn, as a businessman, trader and communicator, allow us to solve each challenge we encounter with a specific strategy with surgical accuracy. Thus, we should always thrive to increase and improve our knowledge base of our professional area and essential life-skills such as communication.

Har!

Girl .03

Looking at pics in magazines and websites makes you think about the kind of life you want. Loking at this, i dream that i can jog with my gf on a quiet morning... haha..

Changing World, Changing Music

As the world progresses over theses two thousand years, it is well-known that the world's rate of pregress has been become faster than ever in this today's era. Things change everyday; your electronics, jobs, knowledge, fashion, trends and science are evolving and changing in this ever-green world of ours. Let me hold at that.

Now, about our music. Simply put, the pace of our music has changed to a slower pace, meaning classical and the oldies. Now, music has become more likable in a fast-paced way, like Rock, pop, Techno and Indie. We of the younger generation also prefer to listen to fast-paced music, cos' it brings us to a state of excitement and anticipation congruent in an ever-changing society.

Fast-paced speedy music with fast rhythm in an ever-evolving society. What excitement and electricity!

Tip: Listen to your favourite fast-paced music to get yourself into a confident wake-up state!

I love to learn, gain new knowledge, practise strategies and earn money!

Thus, for me, there is no work! Only PLAY!

Playing with studies, businesses, options trading and life's activities are so FUN because I LOVE IT!!

Thus I don't see myself as working, but playing 24/7! Ok, maybe excluding sleep… but I fantasize about my spanking future!

=)

Everyday when I'm outside, I battle with the world's stereotypes and ignorance.

When I'm at home, I face the biggest enemy: not objects of temptation but myself. I still feel that dark void of depression here and there, drawing to my low past, sad but familiar. I have not put in enough effort to overcome this feeling, instead sescaping to my bed once and again, after having my comfortable remote feelings of escape anchored to it. The moment I see my bed, I see it as a place where I can escape to my dreamland of fantasy and unconsciousness from the World.

This must stop. I believe the most appliacle effective strategy I must master to permantly overcome my depression is to switch my states using the incredible power of visualization and changing my physiology. Depression, here I come, you're dead.

Girl .02

That Tuesday night was the best night I had chatting with someone I feel for. Kinda veered direction from confessing to her about my feelings to telling my life story though. So thankful for her patience. heh..

Girl .01

Haven been thinking too much about the girl I like. Got rejected the past Tuesday, discovered its pretty easy to tell a girl you like her. Guess I've been harbouring too much fear in my mind. Subsequently, have been thinking too much of her. A 2 hour nap dreaming and thinking of her? Too much man. Move on dude. Yay, a great time to move on to meet new and better girls, maybe the special one somewhere out there. Still, somewhere in my heart, there still seems a longing for her.. Hmm.

It has been four weeks since school started, three weeks since Module 1 of Patterns of Excellence ended. I've not completed all my 36 hours goals, though I'm pretty happy to have completed a ew of them. One significant one would be the confession of my liking to a girl, though it seemed to have ended up more like a life story confession.

Four weeks of school work to catch up. And I want my GPA 4.0? Gotta put in that extra effort man. My time management and execution has been very poor, with last minute changes and many atimes not planning at all.

My old procrastination habit and that familiar old habitual feeling of depression comes now and again, and I allowed it take over me. Hmmm.. Stop!! I CHOOSE to allow myself to be depressed and procrastinating. I have the power to control my state and emotions, to motivate myself or allow myself to slip into that familiar coma of emotions again.

36 hrs Goals from now:

• Draw up plans for:

1. Study (A+)
2. Options trading revision, VT and RT ($)
3. NLP (Depression)
4. House chores
5. Exercise (Men's Health)
6. Business
7. Daily readings (fiction, self-improvement, relationships)
8. Cooking (Cook for friends)

• Come up with reasons for WHY I Must achieve my goals.
• Execute my Action Plans which are accomplishable in 36 hours!

Had dinner with uncle kp @ Lawry's today. Extravagant place; nice steaks. Learnt from him:

1. We should invest our time to grow our powers to live in this world: financial (investments), knowledge (reading books) , influence (communication and negotiation). Influence powers grow with knowledge.

2. The bad things in life that happens to us, which are not caused by us, we should not feel negatively or bear them in our minds strongly (e.g. my family problems, studies and girls). Accept them as it is, recgonise and acknowledge its existence and move on.