The successful warrior is the average man, with laser-like focus.
- Bruce Lee
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Anthony Robbins looks like me! Hoho!
Anthony Robbins.
Don't you agree he just looks like me? He's tall and i'm tall too. hahahahaha..
i believe that i share his value of loving to share something of value to the people around him. wanna do that someday too, like adam.
My role model's role model. Love this guy for changing my life.
NLP and me
What i feel like saying is...
i believe so strongly that the downtimes in my life has been arranged by the Lord so that i may become the person with the most powerful beliefs of myself today. without depression, without going through a broken family, without going through a period of unnatural shyness, and overall without being deprived for a significant portion of my life, how can i feel HUNGRY for LIFE?!
if i had the most comfortable life like some of my peers had (which i envied), i wouldnt even be bothered about some guy called adam khoo or anthony robbins; i would even probably chide them as just businessmen who are NATOs, belittling the enormous difficulties they went through. now that Life has dished me pretty harshly, i believe i'm ready to take on the 'bigger' challenges in Life; though i think they're actually pretty small.
the best birthday gift i have from God is the gift of NLP through Richard Bandler, Anthony and then through Adam. God bless them for showing the willing men and women who want to do so much more in their lives to change the World around them.
haha, one of the best gifts are still that Christmas one where i met her and today's one where she msged me.. probably that'll never change.
i believe so strongly that the downtimes in my life has been arranged by the Lord so that i may become the person with the most powerful beliefs of myself today. without depression, without going through a broken family, without going through a period of unnatural shyness, and overall without being deprived for a significant portion of my life, how can i feel HUNGRY for LIFE?!
if i had the most comfortable life like some of my peers had (which i envied), i wouldnt even be bothered about some guy called adam khoo or anthony robbins; i would even probably chide them as just businessmen who are NATOs, belittling the enormous difficulties they went through. now that Life has dished me pretty harshly, i believe i'm ready to take on the 'bigger' challenges in Life; though i think they're actually pretty small.
the best birthday gift i have from God is the gift of NLP through Richard Bandler, Anthony and then through Adam. God bless them for showing the willing men and women who want to do so much more in their lives to change the World around them.
haha, one of the best gifts are still that Christmas one where i met her and today's one where she msged me.. probably that'll never change.
A Most Painful Decision
i gave up the last three precious days of Patterns Of Excellence Mod 2 seminar. i could have completely destroyed my fears and phobias, learnt more about myself and the power to communicate effectively with other people, a vital skill i need.
why? procrastination. on monday i will have Business Law mid-term test, contributing to 15% of my total. didnt study even up to now. fear; fear that i will not be abot to understand on my first attempt. fear that i will not be able to obtain the perfect marks i want. fear that the other students will win me. fear that their progress will give them the edge. so much fear that i didnt even dare to turn the pages. my pathetic self-posioning beliefs.
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
every sentence every word, so true. every meaning, i want to strive for it. it inspired Adam. now its my turn. gotta give my faith a fighting chance.
let's go and sweep this world off its feet, lenz.
i must get 99% for Business Law, because i want to prove to myself that its not the amount of time i study that matters but the strategies i use to study. above all, i want to prove that ANYTHING is POSSIBLE, it is a matter of STRATEGY (backed by a goal, powerful beliefs and empowering values).
why? procrastination. on monday i will have Business Law mid-term test, contributing to 15% of my total. didnt study even up to now. fear; fear that i will not be abot to understand on my first attempt. fear that i will not be able to obtain the perfect marks i want. fear that the other students will win me. fear that their progress will give them the edge. so much fear that i didnt even dare to turn the pages. my pathetic self-posioning beliefs.
i hope you dance, lee ann womack.
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
every sentence every word, so true. every meaning, i want to strive for it. it inspired Adam. now its my turn. gotta give my faith a fighting chance.
let's go and sweep this world off its feet, lenz.
i must get 99% for Business Law, because i want to prove to myself that its not the amount of time i study that matters but the strategies i use to study. above all, i want to prove that ANYTHING is POSSIBLE, it is a matter of STRATEGY (backed by a goal, powerful beliefs and empowering values).
Lenz's absolute belief about beliefs
This is what Lenz began to believe and it has changed his entire perspective and decisions making:
Our beliefs are completely relative to our own model of the World, e.g.:
Studying is difficult vs studying is fun and easy
Kids are tough to handle vs kids have so much to teach us
the only secure way to earn $ is to get a degree and a good employer vs
the only secure way to earn the amount of $ i want is to be my own boss and obtain multiple streams of income
when i dont acheive my goals i failed vs
when i give up, i fail.
The bible's/quran's Word is absolute. The truth it contains affects us all religious people or not, for e.g.:
Love one another.
Do not indulge in materialistic things.
Do unto others what you want to be done unto you.
Judge no one, for God judges.
Kill no man.
Love your parents and honour them.
Agree?
Our beliefs are completely relative to our own model of the World, e.g.:
Studying is difficult vs studying is fun and easy
Kids are tough to handle vs kids have so much to teach us
the only secure way to earn $ is to get a degree and a good employer vs
the only secure way to earn the amount of $ i want is to be my own boss and obtain multiple streams of income
when i dont acheive my goals i failed vs
when i give up, i fail.
The bible's/quran's Word is absolute. The truth it contains affects us all religious people or not, for e.g.:
Love one another.
Do not indulge in materialistic things.
Do unto others what you want to be done unto you.
Judge no one, for God judges.
Kill no man.
Love your parents and honour them.
Agree?
what are your beliefs today? are they useful and empowering? or only there to limit and slow you down?
Girl .06 Best Birthday Present Ever
I thought i wouldnt get my best birthday present ever. i did, and i'm wordless and so thankful to Him.
I wished very hard for the girl i like to wish me a happy birthday. just her. and she did a few minutes from her msn msg. thank god, haha. bless her man. miss her.
I wished very hard for the girl i like to wish me a happy birthday. just her. and she did a few minutes from her msn msg. thank god, haha. bless her man. miss her.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Perfect-o Life?
In NP, i didnt exactly write down my goals. the only empowering way i used to motivate myself was that i wanted perfect scores in my tests, exams and projects. i only allowed myself a 1 - 5% margin of losing marks.
good side: managed to obtain COMerit after years. more or less consistent results.
however, it was also because of this thinking that gave me my downfall in Finland during my last semester.
feedback side: because i wanted things to be Perfect, i was so beaten down by the fact that i couldnt be first all the way since year 1. i lost that position to Gilbert and i hated myself for it.
over time, i felt that my chances to be 'Perfect' was lessened and i just got depressed everytime i thought about it. such that when it came to last minute revisions, i just wanted to completely escape from the actual exam, because if i didnt take it, then i wouldnt lose marks from not studying completely.
::if i didnt fail, then i wouldnt feel the effect of feeling like a failure for not "Perfectly" reaching my goals.::
same thing in finland, i didnt do my monthly report on time, leading all the way to my final report. in the end, not A SINGLE report was submitted. fortunately, my lecturer was graceful enough to give me a B instead of an F, otherwise i wouldnt be in SMU now. thanks to im and God.
however, not facing my values and beliefs, i continued to think that way, and it continued to impact me all the way in the army and the first 6 weeks in SMU....
[army: unable to become officer (Perfect result), so demoralized and depressed throughout NS life.
smu: so afraid to fail being no. 1 again, did not even attempt to open book to study. afraid to understand "Perfectly" on the 1st try. afraid its too "difficult"]
... until now.
going through POE1 and after much much much self-examination of myself and digging out my self-awareness (about 3 days of re-examining and redefining my values)
i have re-evaluated my values n here they are:
Beliefs
Success = Perfect results
Failure = not reaching my goals
Success = Perfect results
Failure = not reaching my goals
good side: managed to obtain COMerit after years. more or less consistent results.
however, it was also because of this thinking that gave me my downfall in Finland during my last semester.
feedback side: because i wanted things to be Perfect, i was so beaten down by the fact that i couldnt be first all the way since year 1. i lost that position to Gilbert and i hated myself for it.
over time, i felt that my chances to be 'Perfect' was lessened and i just got depressed everytime i thought about it. such that when it came to last minute revisions, i just wanted to completely escape from the actual exam, because if i didnt take it, then i wouldnt lose marks from not studying completely.
::if i didnt fail, then i wouldnt feel the effect of feeling like a failure for not "Perfectly" reaching my goals.::
same thing in finland, i didnt do my monthly report on time, leading all the way to my final report. in the end, not A SINGLE report was submitted. fortunately, my lecturer was graceful enough to give me a B instead of an F, otherwise i wouldnt be in SMU now. thanks to im and God.
however, not facing my values and beliefs, i continued to think that way, and it continued to impact me all the way in the army and the first 6 weeks in SMU....
[army: unable to become officer (Perfect result), so demoralized and depressed throughout NS life.
smu: so afraid to fail being no. 1 again, did not even attempt to open book to study. afraid to understand "Perfectly" on the 1st try. afraid its too "difficult"]
... until now.
going through POE1 and after much much much self-examination of myself and digging out my self-awareness (about 3 days of re-examining and redefining my values)
i have re-evaluated my values n here they are:
success: working towards my goals.
failure: giving up
failure: giving up
as long as i stay on track towards my goals, i'll always feel successful right? as long as i dont give up despite setbacks, i'll never fail!
still, in these 6 weeks in smu, i have still been hiding from reality by not executing my plans. in fact, i have been planning them so i could put the 'burden' away from my mind in an organised way! i was still escaping like in finland and np!
today, during LTB, didnt prep my mock presentation for my training class on Sat. so embarrassed, depressed and frustrated in front of group mates for... about 1 hr 15mins! partially took too long for reframing values, but more importantly because i did not take action for fearing that i wont understand what i'm doing and failing in the course of doing it -> FAILING to achieve my SUCCESS.
what happened?
old belief of failure as not perfectly reaching my goals in terms of time and accuracy still roaching me. afraid to fail. afraid too difficult to understand and too late to revise everything. although i overhauled my old beliefs, i didnt set my foot out to execute the actions.
why?
technical: didnt emotionally charge my new values yet. how do i feel if i were no. 1? how do i feel if i were to lost out to another person? my classmates? smu year 1 students?
belief that life has to be absolutely perfect according to my plan or it is not worth being happy about. learnt from Adam that:
still, in these 6 weeks in smu, i have still been hiding from reality by not executing my plans. in fact, i have been planning them so i could put the 'burden' away from my mind in an organised way! i was still escaping like in finland and np!
today, during LTB, didnt prep my mock presentation for my training class on Sat. so embarrassed, depressed and frustrated in front of group mates for... about 1 hr 15mins! partially took too long for reframing values, but more importantly because i did not take action for fearing that i wont understand what i'm doing and failing in the course of doing it -> FAILING to achieve my SUCCESS.
what happened?
old belief of failure as not perfectly reaching my goals in terms of time and accuracy still roaching me. afraid to fail. afraid too difficult to understand and too late to revise everything. although i overhauled my old beliefs, i didnt set my foot out to execute the actions.
why?
technical: didnt emotionally charge my new values yet. how do i feel if i were no. 1? how do i feel if i were to lost out to another person? my classmates? smu year 1 students?
belief that life has to be absolutely perfect according to my plan or it is not worth being happy about. learnt from Adam that:
" life cannot be perfect, but it can be CLOSE to perfect if you commit yourself to it"
isnt that great? even if i'm not no. 1 at the end of yr 1, i would be happy to be no. 2, 3, 4 or 5 right? its better than not setting goals at all and hoping to score high marks (vague!)?
ya!
the MOST IMPORTANT thing is to obtain feedback from this result (not acheving no. 1 status because of...) and asking myself how i came about to make this mistake and how can i change this part of my studying strategy so that im closer to my goals in the next term!
ya!
the MOST IMPORTANT thing is to obtain feedback from this result (not acheving no. 1 status because of...) and asking myself how i came about to make this mistake and how can i change this part of my studying strategy so that im closer to my goals in the next term!
- modifying my strategy from my feedback of not obtain no. 1 status! -
this entry is a reflection of how i feel. now, i MUST put into action in my plans towards my goals, because if i dont (potential pain), then i will feel Regretful, Stressed, Tired to move on with life, a little Rejected by peers (and LKCSP?!), Failed, Inferior and Uncertain about life! All in my top values! Horrible horible feelings!
for my family, my girfriend, my loving friend and most of all...
for my family, my girfriend, my loving friend and most of all...
...for myself,
all the way, till God calls me.
"all in your mind" - SISPEC ASLC Platoon Commander (Commando).
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Values to Commit To.
Yup, my new values. Now i MUST live by them. they are what makes me, me!1. Tell peeps, you who are reading this, about these values i have created for myself.
2. Everywhere i go, i see them, i get reminded...
3. Visualize all the positive benefits of the values! Fantasize! MMMMMmmm... oh yeah..
4. Make conscious decisions based on them!
Friday, September 22, 2006
Painful Regrets .01
So painful.
Can't join nitebike with my SMUX friends tomorrow night, cos of the back readings i have to do for my subjects. really want to spend time with these people though, great peeps.
i chose not to study and revise earlier beforehand. this regret of not being able to join them will serve as a painful reminder to keep to my schedule. ouch.
Can't join nitebike with my SMUX friends tomorrow night, cos of the back readings i have to do for my subjects. really want to spend time with these people though, great peeps.
i chose not to study and revise earlier beforehand. this regret of not being able to join them will serve as a painful reminder to keep to my schedule. ouch.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Girl .04 Seeing her happy, suddenly life doesn't seem so bad after all.
Upon looking at her pic on her blog, i have a sudden feeling that my worries were taken away. looking at her smile, i feel as if i dont have to worry whether i will be with her or not. is it becos God knows that i'll be with her someday soon? or there is a girl out there who is waiting for me? aw its great seeing her so happy and well.
i dunno. but this sudden disappearance of my worries and burden suddenly lifts me up. its as if my age old crush on her has disappeared. however, i know that i still wanna score a chance with this hot chick. hehe. ya, she's really pretty la, what to do.
i dunno. but this sudden disappearance of my worries and burden suddenly lifts me up. its as if my age old crush on her has disappeared. however, i know that i still wanna score a chance with this hot chick. hehe. ya, she's really pretty la, what to do.
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