A Most Painful Decision

i gave up the last three precious days of Patterns Of Excellence Mod 2 seminar. i could have completely destroyed my fears and phobias, learnt more about myself and the power to communicate effectively with other people, a vital skill i need.

why? procrastination. on monday i will have Business Law mid-term test, contributing to 15% of my total. didnt study even up to now. fear; fear that i will not be abot to understand on my first attempt. fear that i will not be able to obtain the perfect marks i want. fear that the other students will win me. fear that their progress will give them the edge. so much fear that i didnt even dare to turn the pages. my pathetic self-posioning beliefs.

i hope you dance, lee ann womack.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

every sentence every word, so true. every meaning, i want to strive for it. it inspired Adam. now its my turn. gotta give my faith a fighting chance.

let's go and sweep this world off its feet, lenz.

i must get 99% for Business Law, because i want to prove to myself that its not the amount of time i study that matters but the strategies i use to study. above all, i want to prove that ANYTHING is POSSIBLE, it is a matter of STRATEGY (backed by a goal, powerful beliefs and empowering values).