the past 2.5 years

time is nothing but an amotion.

i see.

in the past 2.5 years , having allowed myself to indulge most of the time in fear, pain, loneliness and depression in the Army and post ngee ann, the two main ways i got through them was to escape through unconsciousness and self-gratification.

how? you guess.

sleep, masturbation, impulsive buying, internet surfing and watching videos dipicting other people's lives; with the first two being the most addicted to.

being able to escape from all your painful emotions from fear and feeling the all high from physical self-gratification was more than satisfaction for me to escape.

but no more. this Life God gave me ain't worth living this way. through Him, He forgave us for our sins. so we have no Fear living in it and we shall continue to love and love always.

thus, everyday, i indulge in my all powerful emotions of love in learning new and useful things, studying my business subjects, believing, knowing and acting a bit more like Jesus everyday, and acting upon realising my dream which would bring His command "love your neighbour as yourself" to a whole new scale.

thanks, boss. iku-ze!